while reading Anti-Oedipus

The desiring-machine Deleuze and Guattari describe is what, looking at myself, I am. No in the consumer sense, but in an emotional, creative sense. But, I go against the theory as I do not produce (much) despite this desire-production. Only dreams, ambitions.
No matter how I may agree with the anti-fascist mandate, agree that psychoanalysis is more destructive than "productive" and ___, I still have a tyrant inside of me, some fascist dictator of an ego; not just a part of a personality, but a preeminent reflex toward all I encounter. I always ask myself: Is this due to my background (WASP, American, Tenn.(but does it matter which state?), Puritan source of American pietism, drugged on anti-psychotics)?

"Do not demand of politics that it restore the 'rights' of the individual, as philosophy has defined them. The individual is the product of power.
What is needed is to 'de-individualize' by means of multiplication and displacement, diverse combinations. The group must not be the organic bond uniting hierarchized individuals, but a constant generator of de-individualization." (Foucault, in the Preface)